A Fast End to the FAST

With all of the hype surrounding Dream Girls, I decided to start 2007 off by trying to drop 20 lbs in 2 weeks like Beyonce. Supposedly, she completed the Master Cleanse (Lemonade Diet, Lemonade Fast, etc). I had been thinking about trying this for a while, but I was afraid of how it would taste. The taste wasn’t bad, but what maybe me quit after less than 2 full days, which the mental game. Even though I wasn’t super hungry, we have all gotten used to eating and chewing everyday….not just drinking. On my first night, I attended an event where Subway sandwiches were served. Now I was really strong and didn’t have any, but mentally I was WEAK. I sat there and watched a friend put mayo on her sub, and it was like she was moving in SLOW motion…tempting me….LOL No lie, that night I dreamed about Subway sandwiches. The crazy thing is, I don’t even eat Subway like that…LOL

The next day, it seemed like I stayed confused most of the day and eventually got physically weak. The issue was that I wasn’t drinking enough of the lemonade mixture, which did have the calories, etc to keep me going. Later that evening, I had a meeting and the entire time, I felt like I couldn’t get my thoughts together. I was weak and jittery and my stomach was KILLING me. If you know anything about the Master Cleanse, you know why….lol.

Anyway, after I left that meeting, I decided that I wasn’t mentally ready. I drove to CVS as fast and I could and bought some crackers. I know that I must have looked like a drug fiend because I couldn’t even wait until I got out of the parking lot before I started stuffing crackers into my mouth….LOL…what a sight!

I do want to try this again, but I definitely have to get my mind right for it. It was no joke!

Where Did 2006 Go?

It’s been over a year since I have blogged. My last entry was titled ‘All About Me in 2006’. I guess it must have really been all about me, because I didn’t have time to write anything about it….LOL If I remember correctly, 2006 wasn’t too bad. I guess it was the year of finally, sort of, figuring out what I want to do. It was also the year of taking risks. I left the 9-5 world (for the second time). This time, it was my choice and I had a semi-plan. I spent most of that time away to collect my thoughts and most people think that I was just chilling. Well, it was time well spent because I do have better idea of what I want to do next and even started to focus on it. Hopefully, 2007 will be about putting those plans into ACTION. I’m going to be sure to blog about my plans on a regular basis, so that all you readers can hold me accountable. Send me a note, an IM, a text and ask about my status on yada yada. I always do better when I have someone to hold me accountable. I’ll provide more details about these secret plans later…LOL

I started 2007 off in church, where I plan to spend a lot more time this year. I am also re-reading The Purpose Driven Life. I guess I didn’t get it the first time. But this time, each time I read a chapter, I know that it is talking DIRECTLY to me. (I know, you have probably heard that before, but it’s true!)

I also started the year by kicking off my grand marketing campaign for my real estate business. I mailed out over 500 postcards to renters, with the focus on building my brand and trying to get them interested in home ownership. If you know me, you know that I just HAD to handle all of the production myself. That included design, applying postage, addresses labels, etc. Not an easy task for 500 pieces. I even had family helping me over the Christmas holiday. Well, after I FINALLY got the postcards mailed off….drum roll….I realized that I FORGOT to include the street names on the CARDS! Of course I was devastated! Do you know how much postage and photocopying cost?? I just knew that was money down the drain. Long story short, a postal worker tracked me down, called me, returned the cards to me and allowed me to correct the addresses and return them to him to be mailed, without having to buy more postage…what a BLESSING!

Well, that’s enough for now. Stay tuned for my secret plans…..lol

Just call me 'Blackie'

I haven't written in a while, but I had something that happened to me and I felt that I needed to blog about it.

I was sitting in a meeting at work and this guy is writing on the white board with a black marker. Please note that this man is white....

Anyway, at the end of the meeting, he walks over to me and holds up both his hands, which are now covered in the black marker. He then announces, "I need to go wash my hands because I'm looking just like you".

Now, if you know me, you know that I am damn near his complexion…but we all know what he meant……

I just sat there stunned because this came from someone that I would have NEVER thought would be so insensitive and perhaps racist. I decided that it was not worth even making a big thing over since I am only at this place for a season. It’s just good to know where people are coming from….

I want 2006 to be all about ME

My Mood: HYPED! I'm getting a caffeine high off of this ice tea from the Firehook Bakery

I’m Listening To: Alicia Keys Unplugged – The BOMB

I’m Reading: ‘A Mighty Love’ and ‘Bachelorette Blues’ (No I am not blue or depressed, this is just the name of the novel)

Why do I feel guilty when I don't blog everyday?...lol I promise to do better going forward. I was sitting here doing a personal year-end review of 2005 and the last few years really. I can't remember too much about 2003...I guess that's because I was in my carefree 20's. I remember 2004 being the absolute year from hell, no exaggeration. The year started with me getting laid off from work and went down hill from there. That is also when this whole quarter-life crisis started.

I ended the year by cutting off all of my hair. I guess that was my way to cleanse myself of all of the negative memories of 2004. BE GONE!

2005 definitely got better as far as my outlook and limited setbacks. It seems that I spent most of they year trying to help others...only to get BURNED in the end, each time. When will I realize that everybody does not want, appreciate or even NEED my help (as I have been told several times in recent months)?? I guess it takes getting burned a few times before it will actually sink in. Just like when you have to let a child feel the heat before they realize that the stove is actually hot. For the remainder of this year and in 2006, I will be wearing very thick gloves, to protect myself and my interest.

I was bitter about a few of the situations at first, but now my approach will be to only offer assistance to those who seek it and are sincere about it. No need to waste my time and resources when they are not wanted.

I'm actually kind of proud of the way I have handled some of these situations...perhaps I did some growing up this year.

Still not letting my grow back though….lol

Now….I want 2006 to be all about ME!

The Crisis Defined

I came across this on another blog and had to post it here. Too bad it doesn't provide a solution...lol

The Quarter-Life Crisis
By Unknown

It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are a lot of things about yourself that you didn't know and may or may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.
You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you do not realize is that they are realizing that too and are not really cold or catty or mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.
You look at your job. It is not even close to what you thought you would be doing or maybe you are looking for one and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and are scared.
You miss the comforts of college, of groups, of socializing with the same people on a constant basis. But then you realize that maybe they weren't so great after all.
You are beginning to understand yourself and what you want and do not want. Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging a bit more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and add things to your list of what is acceptable and what is not. You are insecure and then secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.
You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you or you lay in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough to get to know better. You love someone but maybe love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you are not a bad person.
One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap and getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. You go through the same emotions and questions over and over and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision.
You worry about loans and money and the future and making a life for yourself and while wining the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender!
What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.

Call me a pack rat...

Perhaps one of the reasons that I can't seem to focus on any of the many ideas that I have or maybe the reason that I don't feel content most of the time is due to all of this clutter around me! I am a pack rat. My house is cluttered, my desk at work is cluttered...even my purse is cluttered. I was reading up on feng shui and it mentioned that having a home and office/desk full of clutter can block the flow of ideas and make you uptight all the time. I buy books on getting organized all the time, but never get past chapter one...and then, I throw them into the never-ending pile of books in my bed.

I hate going to the mail box to retrieve all of that junk mail because it somehow ends up in some storage area or pile that I always promise to sort later….You would not believe how many ‘piles’ I have laying around.

Can you believe that I still have my prom shoes from 13 years ago?! I think this all goes back to my self-diagnosis of having adult ADHD.

Wouldn't it be crazy if the whole root of my quarter-life crisis is due to clutter?

Anger Management

I guess as I get older, I get more frustrated and angry. I was frustrated this morning when I couldn’t find anything to wear. I was angry at myself for running late again. I was mad at the world for having to go to work in the first place. I was pissed at the people who feel the need to hold up traffic by backing into their spots in the Metro parking garage...just pull in and keep it moving! I was upset that I have to pass by all of the empty parking spaces on the reserved levels of the parking garage until I can find an empty spot, way up on level 5. I was dreading the fact that the elevator will probably be broken again in the garage which means 5 flights up and down today. I was cursing when I had to squeeze my big SUV in between 2 other SUVs that surrounded the parking space.

I was devastated when I had to stay at work for a whole extra hour because the website went down.

I smiled and laughed when I finally made it back to my car to see this note on the windshield: “The next time you park this damn close to my truck, you will have four flate tires. I have your tag number!”

‘Flate’ tires…learn how to spell biatch…LMAO!

To take the time to get out a piece of paper, write that note and stick it on my car means that you have SERIOUS anger management issues.

….I did check to see if she had keyed by door though….LOL

'Suppose' to be doing?

I haven’t posted in a while. I guess I’m still recovering from CBC weekend and of course I’m sliding back into career crisis mode...:-( I really need to figure out what I am suppose to be doing! I have so many ideas, but can never get motivated to initiate any of them. I feel like I am all over the place, but moving no where. I was just telling someone that maybe I have ADHD. Are there any books out there with any motivation on how to jump start a new career? Or to at least help with figuring out what it is suppose to be? I would love to hear some stories and testimonials from people who LOVE their jobs….lol
It’s not like I hate mine, it is pretty cool…it just does not feel like what I am ‘suppose’ to be doing.

Anyway, as far as the CBC is concerned, I don't really feel like doing a recap. I did attend the Kappa reception on Friday. Check our the Angry Black Woman's blog for her recap...it is hilarious and pretty accurate.

I will just say that you have to have a special gift to locate and attract the attention of a Que at a Kappa event....aint that right Que Tip? You have the magic eyes...lol